Update: September 10th 2025

As months have gone by I've found myself not returning much to this record, that is not a reflection of it's quality but it is a sign of my own feeling towards this record. For the past 2 years Quadeca has been my favorite artist, I listined to IDMTHY and it became a part of my identity, it was a record I could not stop talking about, I was obsessed with it, when scrapyard came out I was exctatic and songs like Easier, Being Yourself and You Tried That Thing Where You're Human had such an emotional resonance for me and they were soundtracks for my life and things I was going through at that time. But with this record, songs here didn't become a soundtrack for anything to me, I listened to the record in the midst of losing my audience on youtube right after I got it, I listened to it when I just had too much going on in my life to be able to enjoy it and disappear into this world, I had my own world to deal with. This album is incredible though, It deserves the spot as one of the highest rated albums on websites like Albumoftheyear and rateyourmusic. Objectively it's a masterpiece, it's incredible, it is an immaculate showcase of art. But as time has gone on, even though it's objectively better than IDMTHY and Scrapyard, It doesn't have that emotional connection I had with those records. IDMTHY is not perfect, Listening to Vanisher and IDMTHY side by side makes you see a huge difference in sound and quality, but when it comes to the rawness and genuine pain that is present in IDMTHY, there is a clear difference in how much weight that record has, it's heartbreaking, It's gorgeous without needing to be perfect because it speaks to me. Vanisher is amazing but it doesn't speak to me in the same way IDMTHY did and it's strange to say but Heavy Metal by Cameron Winter hit me more than Vanisher, it made me feel more, it astounded me, I was enthralled by that record. Vanisher is an incredible record, but it just doesn't make me feel the way I'd like it too, it does everything right but it's just not the story that I personally wanted to disappear into.